reflections of a skyline

[...] And I wanna play hide and seek...Give you my clothes...Tell you I love your shoes. And sit on the steps while you take a bath... And massage your neck, and kiss your face, and hold your hand and go for a walk... Not mind when you eat my food. And meet you at Rudy's to talk about the day... Talk about your day. And laugh at your paranoia. And give you tapes you don't listen to, watch great films, watch terrible films... And tell you about the tv program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes. Want you in the morning... but let you sleep in for a while. Tell you how much I love your eyes, your lips, your neck, your tits, your ass... Sit on the steps smoking until your neighbours come home, and sit on the steps smoking until you come home... And worry when you're late, and be amazed when you're earlier. And give you sunflowers, go to your party and dance... Be sorry when I'm wrong, and happy... when you forgive me. Look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever. Hearing your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin... And get scared when you're angry. And tell you you're gorgeous. And hug you when you're anxious, and hold you when you're hurt. And want you when I smell you, and offend you when I touch you... And whimper when I'm next to you... And whimper when i'm not. Dribble on your breast and smooth you in the night; and get cold when you take the blanket, and hot when you don't. And melt when you smile... And dissolve when you laugh... But not understand how you think I'm rejecting you when i'm not rejectin you, and wonder how you could think I'd ever reject you... And wonder who you are. But accept you, anyway. And tell you about the tree angel, enchanted forest boy, who flew across the ocean because he loved you. And buy you presents you don't want, and take 'em away again... And ask you to marry me, and you say 'no', again... But keep on asking because though you think I don't mean it... But I always have from the first time I asked you. I wander the city thinking... It's empty without you. But i want what you want and think I'm losing myself, but... I'll tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me, because... you don't deserve any less. Answer your questions when I'd rather not, and tell you the truth when I really don't want to. And try to be honest, because I know you prefer it... And think it's all over, but... Hang on. For just ten more minutes... Before you throw me out of your life and forget who I am. And let me try to get closer to you... And somehow... Somehow, communicate some of the overwhelming... undying... overpowering... unconditional...

all-encompassing... heart-enriching... mind-expanding... ongoing... never-ending... love I have for you.

[reflections of a skyline]

(12.07.2011)